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Monday, December 03, 2007
♥ 7:43 PM

I've always thought that I've gotten over the previous relationship (and I think I have, really), but once again, I'm reminded of how cynical I've become. And realising the extent of it was like a slap in the face.

I was chatting with toots and the brutal honesty with which I spoke to him was all too real a manifestation of my cynicality. Maybe certain things have always been eating me up and chipping away at that love for life which everyone should have.

I don't know....I always thought I was speaking with the voice of experience, of being 'smarter' enough this time to not make the same mistakes twice. But maybe I was afraid I'll end up getting hurt again.

But is it a crime to be cynical?

Maybe it is when it...
...hurts someone.
...destroys your self-confidence.
...makes you go around with a doomed-to-fail mentality.

Looks like....I've really become that cynical after all.