Sunday, October 29, 2006
Ha. I'm craving for chocolate again.
But luckily, the bf bought me chocolate cake on Thu just because I said I was craving for some. What a sweetie.
Sighs. I really envy those going on exchange. I wanna go too! But it's not simply a matter of applying for it and getting accepted. There're still the issues of money, modules, language etc. But I just can't stop yearning.
And taking this course is the biggest mistake of my life.
Sighs.
Sunday, October 22, 2006
I've this bad habit of wallowing in bad thoughts. In other words, if something unpleasant or disappointing happened, I'll just keep replaying it repeatedly in my head, thinking about if onlys, and what I should or could have done to make things better.
There's no point in living in the past. All I can do is to be forward looking, and make sure that I work harder to prevent the same thing from happening again. Sighs. I can't wait for the holidays man. ):
Friday, October 20, 2006
Yet another late night.
I hate it when I've deadlines to meet.
But I hate myself more for not having done my work ahead of time. I think rushing out last-minute work's an innate part of me. It's just that I didn't realise it until now. -__-
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Demoralised.
Once again, I did not perform up to standard.
What the hell am I doing with my life?
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
I've been doing a lot of thinking, and on hindsight, I should have SU-ed this damn module I'm taking.
And because I've over-estimated myself, it is causing me so much grief that I've a headache just thinking about it.
This goes to show that once you've taken a wrong step, more often than not, there's no more turning back.
And for some reason, I'm on a blogging stint recently.
Oh well.
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Went to Vivocity today with the boyfriend. I hereby declare that it's my favourite new hang out! Haha. It's really damn huge, and the part I like best is the sky park, which is this rooftop garden. You can see the sea and even Sentosa from there. So pretty and tranquil. Think it'll be even prettier when everything's up and running.
Anyway, we spent about 3 hours exploring the place because it's simply too huge. And we took our time in Toys R Us just playing with all the toys there. Yeah, very kiddish I know, but there were some really adorable stuff. And for some reason, as if to fit a theme or something, all the shops there are big too. -.- Haha.
Yup, that'll be all for now. And to end off this post, here's my favourite pic of the day:
Us at the sky park. (:
Till then, tata~
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Feeling very, very sad right now.
Actually, depressed is more the word.
I find myself playing repeatedly in my head about what I should and shouldn't have done. I think I've never made the worst decision until now. I should have listened to my heart instead of my head. Afterall, who knows what will happen in the future, right? If I had done that, I wouldn't be suffering so much now. All of my own doing. Everything seems so bleak. There's just this void in front of me, and I can't go beyond it to see what's ahead. ):
I've never felt so down before. I don't feel motivated to do anything at all. This feeling of blackness is so immense that I can't even begin to articulate it. No one understands how I feel, and I've given up trying to talk about it.
On a totally unrelated matter altogether, the haze is worsening. There's this perpetual smoky tint and charred smell to the air. Maybe I should just take many deep, deep breaths and hope I die of asthma or something.
Bye bye world. Hello, hell.
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Sunday, October 29, 2006
Ha. I'm craving for chocolate again.
But luckily, the bf bought me chocolate cake on Thu just because I said I was craving for some. What a sweetie.
Sighs. I really envy those going on exchange. I wanna go too! But it's not simply a matter of applying for it and getting accepted. There're still the issues of money, modules, language etc. But I just can't stop yearning.
And taking this course is the biggest mistake of my life.
Sighs.
Sunday, October 22, 2006
I've this bad habit of wallowing in bad thoughts. In other words, if something unpleasant or disappointing happened, I'll just keep replaying it repeatedly in my head, thinking about if onlys, and what I should or could have done to make things better.
There's no point in living in the past. All I can do is to be forward looking, and make sure that I work harder to prevent the same thing from happening again. Sighs. I can't wait for the holidays man. ):
Friday, October 20, 2006
Yet another late night.
I hate it when I've deadlines to meet.
But I hate myself more for not having done my work ahead of time. I think rushing out last-minute work's an innate part of me. It's just that I didn't realise it until now. -__-
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Demoralised.
Once again, I did not perform up to standard.
What the hell am I doing with my life?
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
I've been doing a lot of thinking, and on hindsight, I should have SU-ed this damn module I'm taking.
And because I've over-estimated myself, it is causing me so much grief that I've a headache just thinking about it.
This goes to show that once you've taken a wrong step, more often than not, there's no more turning back.
And for some reason, I'm on a blogging stint recently.
Oh well.
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Went to Vivocity today with the boyfriend. I hereby declare that it's my favourite new hang out! Haha. It's really damn huge, and the part I like best is the sky park, which is this rooftop garden. You can see the sea and even Sentosa from there. So pretty and tranquil. Think it'll be even prettier when everything's up and running.
Anyway, we spent about 3 hours exploring the place because it's simply too huge. And we took our time in Toys R Us just playing with all the toys there. Yeah, very kiddish I know, but there were some really adorable stuff. And for some reason, as if to fit a theme or something, all the shops there are big too. -.- Haha.
Yup, that'll be all for now. And to end off this post, here's my favourite pic of the day:
Us at the sky park. (:
Till then, tata~
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Feeling very, very sad right now.
Actually, depressed is more the word.
I find myself playing repeatedly in my head about what I should and shouldn't have done. I think I've never made the worst decision until now. I should have listened to my heart instead of my head. Afterall, who knows what will happen in the future, right? If I had done that, I wouldn't be suffering so much now. All of my own doing. Everything seems so bleak. There's just this void in front of me, and I can't go beyond it to see what's ahead. ):
I've never felt so down before. I don't feel motivated to do anything at all. This feeling of blackness is so immense that I can't even begin to articulate it. No one understands how I feel, and I've given up trying to talk about it.
On a totally unrelated matter altogether, the haze is worsening. There's this perpetual smoky tint and charred smell to the air. Maybe I should just take many deep, deep breaths and hope I die of asthma or something.
Bye bye world. Hello, hell.
