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Wednesday, November 21, 2007
♥ 2:30 AM

Was feeling supremely stressed out, pissed off etc (insert negative emotions here) about the Japan trip and certain people in general just now.

I think I expect too much from people sometimes. Maybe I've pitched myself on such a moral high ground that I can't tolerate even the smallest of incompetence. Not to say that I'm perfect, just that I have too high an expectation for a lot of things and people. And when they fall short (more often than not through no fault of their own), I'll feel so disappointed. Oh well.

I guess everythings's a matter of perception, isn't it? Well, that's it for now. Ciao.


Tuesday, November 20, 2007
♥ 12:40 AM

Monday marked the start of the study week. Was quite proud of myself since I accomplished what I sat out to do. And for once, I felt glad that my exams are so drawn out - I've plenty of time to study for them this time round. But isn't it too little too late? Oh wells.

Feeling temperamental yet again. That sense of inadequacy, of failing to measure up. But it's all self-inflicted again.

Anyways. Good luck to all for the exams. 一緒に頑張ってね!


Sunday, November 11, 2007
♥ 2:28 AM

I'm blogging again. I've no idea why this has turned into a habit recently, and at a totally wrong timing too! Maybe it's due to my 开心果。But I really think it's time I force myself to sit down and mug, once and for all.

其实是不太想寄托太多的期望,却又无法自拔。也发现最近常喜欢以中文来blog.说真的,还蛮怀念以前用中文来写作文的时候。

Anyways. I was looking through my past photos, and I shuddered upon seeing them. OMG. Did I really look that bad one year ago? Okay I know that sounds kinda bimbotic, but oh well. But more importantly, along with the changes in my appearance, I think I matured mentally as well. That's a good thing, I feel. But. Depsite the boost in self-confidence, I still have self-doubts sometimes. And I'm still prone to mood swings as well - vacillating from one end to the next. I really, really want to learn to become a better person. Sighs. As I become older, I find that I turn to this blog for more and more comfort. Perhaps I'm afraid that some things can never be recovered if I let go, hence the blogging? I really don't know.

Oh wells. Guess I'll just end here for now. The urge to continue writing's gone anyways. And I should probably start sleeping earlier as well. =/ Till then, tata.


Friday, November 09, 2007
♥ 12:36 AM

Deleted some of the past entries, and along with them, the memories.

Memories that are not to be dwelt upon any more. Nothing more, nothing less. And as of today, I'll only be forward looking. You can't change the past, so instead of always looking backwards, isn't it better to think about the present and the future?

And oh wells I better get back to finishing my damn econs report. Tata~


Thursday, November 08, 2007
♥ 6:47 PM

Love the feeling of this layout... I'm here again, but I'm not exactly sure what it is that I want to write here anyway.

There's always a difference between one's perception and reality; a self-fulfilling prophecy if you want to put a name on it. 现实与想象真的是有落差的。Oftentimes, you just want to superimpose whatever you're feeling onto the reality, which may not turn out to be such a pretty picture after all.

本人真的成天只发白日梦。一直把现实想得太美好,到头来却发现扑了个空。

Sometimes I yearn to take that first step; but I held back. I didn't want to leap without looking first, and end up hurting myself again. 有时候真得很矛盾,不知怎么做才是对的。担心受到伤害却又跃跃欲试。原本以为很了解别人,后来才发现身边站的是个陌生人。

Oh well. Two more weeks before exams. And I seriously cannot believe all the shit that's happening prior to my Japan trip. Argh.

Till then again.


Tuesday, November 06, 2007
♥ 1:01 AM

Haven't been feeling so happy in a long time. So, to the one who managed to bring so much laughter into my life these past couple of days: Thank you! (:

Saturday, November 03, 2007
♥ 2:48 AM

本人又再次回来了。有个坏习惯,
就是总喜欢在夜深人静时扮忧郁。哈哈又在自嘲讽了。但说真的,还蛮喜欢这种平静的感觉。满脑子都是一些乱七八糟的思绪,老爱对一些不该想的东西存有幻想,怪不得整天心绪不宁。唉,其实不应让期望太高,不然肯定又会再次失望。

前天上日语课时讨论了一些话题,不知怎地谈到了日本女性与新加坡女性的分别。说着说着,便提出了新加坡女性其实不需要男人也照样能活得很充实。本人也蛮同意这个说法的。没有男人女人也能活得精彩!だから、女性は本当に男性が要らないと思っているん。不过,现在也多了好几个男性朋友,维持现状也没什么不好的。至少本人觉得他们比较大方,也不会带有色眼镜看你。更何况,通常他们也会很乐意与热心的帮助你,真让本人深感欣慰。(:

好了,就先到这里为止。等会儿还得去订飞机票呢!

Till then again, tata~

And it's that time of the year again when they let the monkeys out. ):


♥ 12:59 AM

Suddenly I feel so alive - I can't believe I was living in a shell for two whole uni years. And now I've finally broken out of that cocoon, meeting new people, experiencing new stuff. And it's really refreshing, for a change. (:

あの人と別れた後、初めてとてもうれしくと感じます。

Woots~ 日本,我来也!