Wednesday, November 29, 2006
The computing and jap papers yesterday were horrid. For one, they were much harder than I thought, and secondly, I couldn't finish on time.
So, it still turns out that what you're looking forward is always worst than what you dread, at least this time around. I was dreading econs but it was okay; and on the contrary, the two papers that I wasn't so worried about were bad. Oh well. No point dwelling on spilled milk. It's not as if I can turn back time and make things better.
Anyway, I'm taking some time to relax - after all, my next and last paper (yippee~) will be this coming Mon, so that gives me another.....5 days to study.
Been feeling quite disappointed about some stuff. It's always the case that the more you hope for, the harder you fall when it didn't materialise. I'm getting so tired trying to maintain the status quo. Am I asking for a lot?
And sometimes, simply believing just isn't enough anymore.
Monday, November 27, 2006
One paper down, 3 more to go. And before I know it, the exams are over. Wheeeee~ Haha.
Anyway, the econs paper on Sat wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be. There's no doubt that I could have done better, but I don't really like dwelling on what's over. Think I'll just have to wait till the results are released. As of now, I'm supposed to be studying for my computing and jap papers for tomorrow but for some reason, I'm not really in the mood. Haha. The holiday spirit's getting to me! Ahhh I love Christmas!
And well, I finally managed to catch A Beautiful Mind after what seemed like ages. Yes, I know I'm slow, but better late than never right? It got me to think about what might have happened if he didn't have the support of his wife. I'm sure a lesser woman would have left him long ago, after discovering his plight. And I supposed that's what love is all about: You stay by the one you love no matter what happens. Awww.
Okay, shall end off here. Will continue my mugging from here on! (:
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
I've come to a conclusion that what's so hard about exams is not the actual sitting of the the paper itself, but what goes on before it - the endless mugging and cramming of information so much so that you just feel like screaming. At least I do. And dear old econs really make me want to scream, not to mention the fact that it puts me to sleep as well.
Been trying to study really hard for the past few days, but it turns out that what goes in one side goes out the other. Frankly speaking I couldn't care for more studying already - I just want to get all the papers over and done with. And knowing so many people finish their exams before I do is making me so envious. ): I think I'm having quite an easy time this sem - all my papers are pretty spaced out, I've two open-book exams, none of my papers are in the morning, which means I do not have to sit for an exam in a bleary-eyed state. I know I could be thankful for all of that, and I am, really, but I prefer to cut my suffering short, because exams are a drag whether you have enough time to study for them or not.
And although I know perfectly well that I shouldn't even be here at all, staring at all the econs notes and trying to figure out preferences + profit maximisation + nash equilibrium is driving me mad. I want to go out! Boo.
Anyway, shall end off here. Maybe I should just burn all the notes and eat them and pray damn hard that I can vomit them out during the paper. Just a joke, but no doubt a tempting one. Haha. Tata~
Friday, November 17, 2006
I realised this is the third time I'm blogging today. Speaks a lot about what I've been doing the whole day huh. Oops. Feeling quite guilty now for not studying today. Butbutbut...I finished my dreaded essay finally! And I'm so excited because the dress that I ordered online is coming! Haha.
Okayyy, I really should go study now. Sighs. Till then, tata~~ (:
Saw this on HM's blog and I couldn't resist... Haha. Anyway, here goes!
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
It's nice to know that you still have friends who'll bother to drop you an occasional sms or two to encourage you or simply just to say hi now and then.
And these are the same people whom you haven't seen for quite a while because of your busy schedules.
It's the little things like this that makes my day.
(:
Monday, November 13, 2006
A random post.
The thing that I can't live without currently. It's really nice for munching, and quite healthy I suppose. Haha.
Presenting to you my terribly adorable baby cousin! Don't be fooled by that cute face, because she can be a monster. =p
Haha. Nothing better to do. Thought I'd let off some steam before I go back to my darn essay. Till then, tata~ (:
Sunday, November 12, 2006
If I could turn back time, I'd have done things differently. I would listen to my heart instead of my head. After all, it's always the practicality versus interest debate. Actually, I shouldn't have thought so much and should have just gone ahead with what I've always wanted to do. I'd never know what the outcome is, but one thing I can be sure of is that at least I'd have been happier doing what I like, even if I don't get the desired grades. After all, who knows what will happen in the future? We may end up with a job that's totally unrelated to our fields of study. Just can't help feeling wistful and regretful at the same time.
I had already made a resolution at the beginning of this semester that I'd try my best and study as hard as I could. That's because I'm not blessed with any natural gift, and that's why I need to work extra hard and put in double or even triple the effort that other people put in. I know no one's born with the natural ability or talent to excel in whatever they do, but somehow, there are always some people who do so well compared to others without seeming to put in much effort at all. But there comes a point when you're at your lowest and darkest period: No matter how hard you try, you just can't seem to get the outcome you want. And it is then that you start cracking under the pressure. For some, they're able to pick themselves up again, but for others, it's a downward spiral: they couldn't climb out of that void, hard as they try. I was determined not to become a statistic in the latter, still am, by the way, but it's increasingly hard to stay optimistic in the face of adversity and faced with so many seemingly unsurmountable challenges. This really shines a new light on "what doesn't kill you will make you stronger". And that makes you a survivor, because since you've already overcome the challenges once, you can do it again.
No matter how nonchalant I may appear to be, I'll admit that I haven't been happy at all ever since I've taken this course (and serves me right for just going with the flow and not giving any thought to what I want for myself and my life in the future) but I promise that I'll try to stay strong no matter what happens, with the knowledge that I've the support of so many wonderful people behind me. Thank you so much. Love y'all!
There's always sunshine after the rain.
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Before I forget:
And that makes it 1.5 years! Thank you for making me so happy my darl. Love ya always! (:
People always say eating chocolates can help you to destress. And to prove that point, I went and bought myself this big slab of Cadbury's. But looking at it and eating it isn't helping at all. And to think that it's one of my favourite brands of choc!
Ugh.
Somebody help! I feel so tired and demoralised and afraid. Why am I constantly beating myself up and tearing my own confidence into shreds? It's all just in the mind, isn't it? Sighs.
Will I ever smile again?
Sunday, November 05, 2006
Sighs. Exams are coming in three weeks' time and I haven't started studying at all. And despite all that, I still have a couple of assignments and paper due. I was thinking, actually the school shouldn't schedule lessons right up to before the study week. I'm sure many people'll appreciate more studying time. At least I know I do. But then again, that'll only provide procrastinators like me with excuses not to study hard. I'll probably just stay glued to the TV the whole day. Yes, I admit I'm a TV addict. I can watch TV for 5 hours straight.
And while I'm on my favourite topic, I realised I do get a lot of inspiration from the shows I'm watching. Current favourite's Project Runway sans the bitching and blahs. I mean, it never fails to amaze me how the designers can always turn something so nondescript and useless (think recycled stuff aka trash) into pieces of beautiful (okay, not quite, but some of the outfits are definitely, erm, interesting) clothes. Just makes you ponder about the limitless well of human creativity huh. And it brings me to my second point: Anything that's artsy is a very subjective thing. Take for instance the fact that Vincent wasn't eliminated when week after week he produces weird clothings. Crazy stuff man.
And I admit all those drama serials I watch are kind of like rubbish TV, and it never dawn on me why the protagonists can turn against each other or wallow in self-pity just because of love. I mean, you won't want to commit suicide just because someone you like falls in love with another girl, do you? The plots in these shows are so unrealistic and laughable, but at the same time, they also provide an outlet for me to destress.
Ha. Guess that'll be all for now. Can't wait for the exams to end! Ugh. Till then, tata~
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Met up with the kids from the japanese primary school near NUS for pur project yesterday morning. We were supposed to show them around Bukit Chandu (this really small and ulu war museum featuring pictures and artefacts from WWII) and to have lunch with them after that.
It was a very different and enriching experience, to say the least. First off, they were very friendly, and you could tell that they weren't afraid of strangers. And kids being kids, they were curious about many things, and they were so happy when we (myself and two other NUS students in charge of them) bought them ice-cream and sweets. After lunch, when we were supposed to pass the kids over to another group who was going to show them around NUS, we couldn't quite bear to part with them. Haha. Kind of miss their innocence and non-stop chattering.
Anyway, some random pics:
Looking a tad startled. Haha.
So cute.
Picture time!
Yup, that'll be all for now. Mata kondo ne!
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
The computing and jap papers yesterday were horrid. For one, they were much harder than I thought, and secondly, I couldn't finish on time.
So, it still turns out that what you're looking forward is always worst than what you dread, at least this time around. I was dreading econs but it was okay; and on the contrary, the two papers that I wasn't so worried about were bad. Oh well. No point dwelling on spilled milk. It's not as if I can turn back time and make things better.
Anyway, I'm taking some time to relax - after all, my next and last paper (yippee~) will be this coming Mon, so that gives me another.....5 days to study.
Been feeling quite disappointed about some stuff. It's always the case that the more you hope for, the harder you fall when it didn't materialise. I'm getting so tired trying to maintain the status quo. Am I asking for a lot?
And sometimes, simply believing just isn't enough anymore.
Monday, November 27, 2006
One paper down, 3 more to go. And before I know it, the exams are over. Wheeeee~ Haha.
Anyway, the econs paper on Sat wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be. There's no doubt that I could have done better, but I don't really like dwelling on what's over. Think I'll just have to wait till the results are released. As of now, I'm supposed to be studying for my computing and jap papers for tomorrow but for some reason, I'm not really in the mood. Haha. The holiday spirit's getting to me! Ahhh I love Christmas!
And well, I finally managed to catch A Beautiful Mind after what seemed like ages. Yes, I know I'm slow, but better late than never right? It got me to think about what might have happened if he didn't have the support of his wife. I'm sure a lesser woman would have left him long ago, after discovering his plight. And I supposed that's what love is all about: You stay by the one you love no matter what happens. Awww.
Okay, shall end off here. Will continue my mugging from here on! (:
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
I've come to a conclusion that what's so hard about exams is not the actual sitting of the the paper itself, but what goes on before it - the endless mugging and cramming of information so much so that you just feel like screaming. At least I do. And dear old econs really make me want to scream, not to mention the fact that it puts me to sleep as well.
Been trying to study really hard for the past few days, but it turns out that what goes in one side goes out the other. Frankly speaking I couldn't care for more studying already - I just want to get all the papers over and done with. And knowing so many people finish their exams before I do is making me so envious. ): I think I'm having quite an easy time this sem - all my papers are pretty spaced out, I've two open-book exams, none of my papers are in the morning, which means I do not have to sit for an exam in a bleary-eyed state. I know I could be thankful for all of that, and I am, really, but I prefer to cut my suffering short, because exams are a drag whether you have enough time to study for them or not.
And although I know perfectly well that I shouldn't even be here at all, staring at all the econs notes and trying to figure out preferences + profit maximisation + nash equilibrium is driving me mad. I want to go out! Boo.
Anyway, shall end off here. Maybe I should just burn all the notes and eat them and pray damn hard that I can vomit them out during the paper. Just a joke, but no doubt a tempting one. Haha. Tata~
Friday, November 17, 2006
I realised this is the third time I'm blogging today. Speaks a lot about what I've been doing the whole day huh. Oops. Feeling quite guilty now for not studying today. Butbutbut...I finished my dreaded essay finally! And I'm so excited because the dress that I ordered online is coming! Haha.
Okayyy, I really should go study now. Sighs. Till then, tata~~ (:
Saw this on HM's blog and I couldn't resist... Haha. Anyway, here goes!
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
It's nice to know that you still have friends who'll bother to drop you an occasional sms or two to encourage you or simply just to say hi now and then.
And these are the same people whom you haven't seen for quite a while because of your busy schedules.
It's the little things like this that makes my day.
(:
Monday, November 13, 2006
A random post.
The thing that I can't live without currently. It's really nice for munching, and quite healthy I suppose. Haha.
Presenting to you my terribly adorable baby cousin! Don't be fooled by that cute face, because she can be a monster. =p
Haha. Nothing better to do. Thought I'd let off some steam before I go back to my darn essay. Till then, tata~ (:
Sunday, November 12, 2006
If I could turn back time, I'd have done things differently. I would listen to my heart instead of my head. After all, it's always the practicality versus interest debate. Actually, I shouldn't have thought so much and should have just gone ahead with what I've always wanted to do. I'd never know what the outcome is, but one thing I can be sure of is that at least I'd have been happier doing what I like, even if I don't get the desired grades. After all, who knows what will happen in the future? We may end up with a job that's totally unrelated to our fields of study. Just can't help feeling wistful and regretful at the same time.
I had already made a resolution at the beginning of this semester that I'd try my best and study as hard as I could. That's because I'm not blessed with any natural gift, and that's why I need to work extra hard and put in double or even triple the effort that other people put in. I know no one's born with the natural ability or talent to excel in whatever they do, but somehow, there are always some people who do so well compared to others without seeming to put in much effort at all. But there comes a point when you're at your lowest and darkest period: No matter how hard you try, you just can't seem to get the outcome you want. And it is then that you start cracking under the pressure. For some, they're able to pick themselves up again, but for others, it's a downward spiral: they couldn't climb out of that void, hard as they try. I was determined not to become a statistic in the latter, still am, by the way, but it's increasingly hard to stay optimistic in the face of adversity and faced with so many seemingly unsurmountable challenges. This really shines a new light on "what doesn't kill you will make you stronger". And that makes you a survivor, because since you've already overcome the challenges once, you can do it again.
No matter how nonchalant I may appear to be, I'll admit that I haven't been happy at all ever since I've taken this course (and serves me right for just going with the flow and not giving any thought to what I want for myself and my life in the future) but I promise that I'll try to stay strong no matter what happens, with the knowledge that I've the support of so many wonderful people behind me. Thank you so much. Love y'all!
There's always sunshine after the rain.
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Before I forget:
And that makes it 1.5 years! Thank you for making me so happy my darl. Love ya always! (:
People always say eating chocolates can help you to destress. And to prove that point, I went and bought myself this big slab of Cadbury's. But looking at it and eating it isn't helping at all. And to think that it's one of my favourite brands of choc!
Ugh.
Somebody help! I feel so tired and demoralised and afraid. Why am I constantly beating myself up and tearing my own confidence into shreds? It's all just in the mind, isn't it? Sighs.
Will I ever smile again?
Sunday, November 05, 2006
Sighs. Exams are coming in three weeks' time and I haven't started studying at all. And despite all that, I still have a couple of assignments and paper due. I was thinking, actually the school shouldn't schedule lessons right up to before the study week. I'm sure many people'll appreciate more studying time. At least I know I do. But then again, that'll only provide procrastinators like me with excuses not to study hard. I'll probably just stay glued to the TV the whole day. Yes, I admit I'm a TV addict. I can watch TV for 5 hours straight.
And while I'm on my favourite topic, I realised I do get a lot of inspiration from the shows I'm watching. Current favourite's Project Runway sans the bitching and blahs. I mean, it never fails to amaze me how the designers can always turn something so nondescript and useless (think recycled stuff aka trash) into pieces of beautiful (okay, not quite, but some of the outfits are definitely, erm, interesting) clothes. Just makes you ponder about the limitless well of human creativity huh. And it brings me to my second point: Anything that's artsy is a very subjective thing. Take for instance the fact that Vincent wasn't eliminated when week after week he produces weird clothings. Crazy stuff man.
And I admit all those drama serials I watch are kind of like rubbish TV, and it never dawn on me why the protagonists can turn against each other or wallow in self-pity just because of love. I mean, you won't want to commit suicide just because someone you like falls in love with another girl, do you? The plots in these shows are so unrealistic and laughable, but at the same time, they also provide an outlet for me to destress.
Ha. Guess that'll be all for now. Can't wait for the exams to end! Ugh. Till then, tata~
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Met up with the kids from the japanese primary school near NUS for pur project yesterday morning. We were supposed to show them around Bukit Chandu (this really small and ulu war museum featuring pictures and artefacts from WWII) and to have lunch with them after that.
It was a very different and enriching experience, to say the least. First off, they were very friendly, and you could tell that they weren't afraid of strangers. And kids being kids, they were curious about many things, and they were so happy when we (myself and two other NUS students in charge of them) bought them ice-cream and sweets. After lunch, when we were supposed to pass the kids over to another group who was going to show them around NUS, we couldn't quite bear to part with them. Haha. Kind of miss their innocence and non-stop chattering.
Anyway, some random pics:
Looking a tad startled. Haha.
So cute.
Picture time!
Yup, that'll be all for now. Mata kondo ne!
