Monday, April 24, 2006
Sometimes I really envy those who know what they want in life, and that they'll try everything within their means to achieve their goals. For instance, they know what they want to study in the university, what they want to work as after they graduate and so forth. As for me? I'm basically just drifting along, following the crowd, doing what my head knows is correct but what my heart is indicating otherwise. As in, I keep telling myself I should major in Econs, but deep in my heart, I know that's not what I want. The only reason I'm taking that dreaded module's due to practicality - there're more job oppourtunities available compared to, say, psychology graduates (at least within the limited job market of Singapore). Or so they say. But seriously, I'm doing so badly and whenever I think about having to study for it, I just feel like hiding in some remote corner and never have to set sight on any Econs text ever again.
That aside, you may ask me so what is it that I really want to do? My only answer is, I've no idea. Seriously. I'm NOT kidding. All along, I thought I wanted to do psych but in the end, it turns out that it wasn't really what I imagined it to be. So now, I'm just standing at the junction of this crossroad, with no signs of directions whatsoever. -screams in frustration- It actually seems quite laughable that after all these years of education, I'm just finally realising that I'm totally clueless. Why can't our lives be mapped out for us? When we're faced with so many choices and paths that we can take, more often than not, we'll just end up hopelessly lost. At least for me. Sigh.
Anyway, back to the topic at hand. Hmm, as expected, the paper (ok it was Econs) today was baddddd. Once again, I find myself racing against time when I don't even know how to do most of the questions. Kind of contradicting, isn't it? All I can do now at this point is to pray and hope that I don't have to retake this module. And actually, I shouldn't be here blogging when I still have 2 more papers to go. Seriously, I really need to get my priorities right. Argh.
That's it for now. I'm so done with my life. And everything else.
P/S: HM: On a happier note, our date's one of the things I'm looking most forward to. And thanks so muchie for your encouragement yeah? (:
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Ok, so I lied. I know I know, I said I wouldn't do any blogging until my exams are over, but I thought I'd come here and vent for a while.
I really don't know what's wrong with me. I have a paper tomorrow, but I just can't seem to concentrate. I'm wasting time sleeping and doing stuff except for studying. In fact, I don't even feel the slightest sense of urgency - I mean, hello, I HAVE AN EXAM TOMORROW!!!! -slaps myself awake- Furthermore, it's the paper that I'm dreading. Tell me, what should I do? Sighhh.
I really hate this semester. My timetable sucks, I'm doing modules which I don't like, on top of that, 4 out of 5 of them require heavy readings. My brain's so over-saturated I just can't squeeze in any more information, no matter how much I force myself to. Think I'll be getting a C average this sem. But that fact can't even galvanise me to do anything. Feeling so, so jaded and tired. I'm losing faith quickly, despite the support I'm getting from my family and him. It's always easier said than done. People will keep telling you can do it and I know they're just trying to be nice, but they really don't understand the strain I'm under, trying to keep up my grades and living up to their expectations.
I feel like such a failure. Oh gosh, all I ask for is for this sem to be over quick. Just 3 more days to the end of exams and I'll be free for 3 months. The problem is, I'll never be free of feeling like a loser, and falling short of expections. :(
Guess that's all for now. I shall force myself to hit the books again. At the most, I'll just write rubbish and stone tomorrow. Wish me luck. Tata.
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Hmm realised I haven't been updating for a while. Anyway, there'll be no updates until my exams are over (26 April) so yup. In the meantime, do study hard peeps and good luck for the exams! (:
Sunday, April 02, 2006
Hmm, took this test from Pam's blog... Thought it was quite interesting so yup.
The Five Love Languages
My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Words of Affirmation.
Complete set of results
| Quality Time: | | 8 |
| Words of Affirmation: | | 7 |
| Acts of Service: | | 5 |
| Physical Touch: | | 5 |
| Receiving Gifts: | | 5 |
Information
Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.
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Monday, April 24, 2006
Sometimes I really envy those who know what they want in life, and that they'll try everything within their means to achieve their goals. For instance, they know what they want to study in the university, what they want to work as after they graduate and so forth. As for me? I'm basically just drifting along, following the crowd, doing what my head knows is correct but what my heart is indicating otherwise. As in, I keep telling myself I should major in Econs, but deep in my heart, I know that's not what I want. The only reason I'm taking that dreaded module's due to practicality - there're more job oppourtunities available compared to, say, psychology graduates (at least within the limited job market of Singapore). Or so they say. But seriously, I'm doing so badly and whenever I think about having to study for it, I just feel like hiding in some remote corner and never have to set sight on any Econs text ever again.
That aside, you may ask me so what is it that I really want to do? My only answer is, I've no idea. Seriously. I'm NOT kidding. All along, I thought I wanted to do psych but in the end, it turns out that it wasn't really what I imagined it to be. So now, I'm just standing at the junction of this crossroad, with no signs of directions whatsoever. -screams in frustration- It actually seems quite laughable that after all these years of education, I'm just finally realising that I'm totally clueless. Why can't our lives be mapped out for us? When we're faced with so many choices and paths that we can take, more often than not, we'll just end up hopelessly lost. At least for me. Sigh.
Anyway, back to the topic at hand. Hmm, as expected, the paper (ok it was Econs) today was baddddd. Once again, I find myself racing against time when I don't even know how to do most of the questions. Kind of contradicting, isn't it? All I can do now at this point is to pray and hope that I don't have to retake this module. And actually, I shouldn't be here blogging when I still have 2 more papers to go. Seriously, I really need to get my priorities right. Argh.
That's it for now. I'm so done with my life. And everything else.
P/S: HM: On a happier note, our date's one of the things I'm looking most forward to. And thanks so muchie for your encouragement yeah? (:
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Ok, so I lied. I know I know, I said I wouldn't do any blogging until my exams are over, but I thought I'd come here and vent for a while.
I really don't know what's wrong with me. I have a paper tomorrow, but I just can't seem to concentrate. I'm wasting time sleeping and doing stuff except for studying. In fact, I don't even feel the slightest sense of urgency - I mean, hello, I HAVE AN EXAM TOMORROW!!!! -slaps myself awake- Furthermore, it's the paper that I'm dreading. Tell me, what should I do? Sighhh.
I really hate this semester. My timetable sucks, I'm doing modules which I don't like, on top of that, 4 out of 5 of them require heavy readings. My brain's so over-saturated I just can't squeeze in any more information, no matter how much I force myself to. Think I'll be getting a C average this sem. But that fact can't even galvanise me to do anything. Feeling so, so jaded and tired. I'm losing faith quickly, despite the support I'm getting from my family and him. It's always easier said than done. People will keep telling you can do it and I know they're just trying to be nice, but they really don't understand the strain I'm under, trying to keep up my grades and living up to their expectations.
I feel like such a failure. Oh gosh, all I ask for is for this sem to be over quick. Just 3 more days to the end of exams and I'll be free for 3 months. The problem is, I'll never be free of feeling like a loser, and falling short of expections. :(
Guess that's all for now. I shall force myself to hit the books again. At the most, I'll just write rubbish and stone tomorrow. Wish me luck. Tata.
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Hmm realised I haven't been updating for a while. Anyway, there'll be no updates until my exams are over (26 April) so yup. In the meantime, do study hard peeps and good luck for the exams! (:
Sunday, April 02, 2006
Hmm, took this test from Pam's blog... Thought it was quite interesting so yup.
The Five Love Languages
My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Words of Affirmation.
Complete set of results
| Quality Time: | | 8 |
| Words of Affirmation: | | 7 |
| Acts of Service: | | 5 |
| Physical Touch: | | 5 |
| Receiving Gifts: | | 5 |
Information
Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.
Take the quiz
