Sunday, April 29, 2007
I tend to over analyse things.
These few days, thoughts that shouldn't be there kept going around in my mind. They aren't new, and always resurface whenever I feel down.
I dare say I'm a perfectionist - wanting everything to turn out just the way I want. But that's not to say I'm perfect though. Far from it, actually.
And my mind kept returning to two years ago, thinking about what could have been, should have been, and will never be.
Happiness is just a simple thing, isn't it?
Then why do I find it so far out of my reach?
Once again, everything's my own wishful thinking, and that perfect scene only exists in dreams after all.
Friday, April 27, 2007
2 more papers left to go. And I realised my exams started quite late - when I sat for my first paper, most other people are already halfway through or finishing their exams. The past 2 days' papers were goners. Econs never fail to demoralise me; it always makes me feel dumb and inadequate. And when I walked out of the exam hall, this black cloud was hanging over me, which probably explained the not-too-pretty mood I was in the last couple of days. In other words, I was quite snappish and mean. I'm really sorry to all those I snapped at. You know you should leave me alone when I'm in a bad mood. =p
And I need to regain my long-lost confidence again!
Anyway, after the two econs papers, I was so relieved that I didn't really study for the history paper I sat for today. It was an SS module (and very well chocked full of propaganda) with regards to Singapore's history. So tell me, am I in my milieu or what? And I really have my Sec 3/4 hist teacher to thank for increasing my interest in that arena.
Well well, as is quite obvious, I'm in a jolly mood again. The next paper's not till Monday, so I have quite a bit of time to study for it. And the best part's that it's open-book! Lalala.
Yep, shall end here for now. I'm so looking forward to meeting up with everyone after exams! Whee. =D
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Like I said in my previous post, exams never fail to mar my happy mood. And it's exacerbated by: (1) being cooped up at home day and night to cram tons of information, (2) not being able to meet the darling (I seriously can't remember when was the last time we saw each other -_-) and (3) not being able to do what I want whenever I want to. Argh.
But the post-exams period is something to really look forward to because I'm: (1) going Sentosa with my beloved XW!, (2) celebrating our second year with the darling (Love him to bits!), (3) so going to work my ass off to save up for the Japan trip at the end of the year, GSS etc, and (4) meeting up with friends old and new! Just thinking about all these makes me so happy and excited.
And now the only thing left for me to do is to survive the exams by mugging darn hard!
And hopefully you won't be seeing me here again until 2 May!
Till then, tata~
Exams never fail to put me in a bad mood.
I'm cranky again. And venting it on people who are hapless.
It's funny how I always manage to delude myself when it's so apparent the truth's otherwise.
And you're probably thinking that this is yet another self-mocking tirade again.
It is. But the only difference this time is that I'm going to stop this shit right now.
And this isn't meant to be coherent.
Tata.
Once again, disappointment flowered and spread.
And I'm powerless to stop it.
Is it because I expect too much?
Sunday, April 08, 2007
Met the darling on Friday for a movie and dinner at Waraku! It seemed like ages since we last saw each other - isn't it kind of ironic that we're actually seeing less of each other after he ORD-ed? Anyway, the date was uneventful, but I enjoyed myself nonetheless. After all, like they always say, it's the company that matters! (:
So, here's the only photo I mangaed to take of the food before we tucked in - I had the hotate kaminabe (scallop paper hotpot - if I remembered correctly =p) which I had always mistaken for the mushroom hotpot from the window display -_-|| whereas the darl ordered the katsu set which was equally good:
Looks real good, doesn't it?
Yup, guess that'll be all for now. Till then, tata~
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.who wakes up and learns to be thankful for her blessings
Sunday, April 29, 2007
I tend to over analyse things.
These few days, thoughts that shouldn't be there kept going around in my mind. They aren't new, and always resurface whenever I feel down.
I dare say I'm a perfectionist - wanting everything to turn out just the way I want. But that's not to say I'm perfect though. Far from it, actually.
And my mind kept returning to two years ago, thinking about what could have been, should have been, and will never be.
Happiness is just a simple thing, isn't it?
Then why do I find it so far out of my reach?
Once again, everything's my own wishful thinking, and that perfect scene only exists in dreams after all.
Friday, April 27, 2007
2 more papers left to go. And I realised my exams started quite late - when I sat for my first paper, most other people are already halfway through or finishing their exams. The past 2 days' papers were goners. Econs never fail to demoralise me; it always makes me feel dumb and inadequate. And when I walked out of the exam hall, this black cloud was hanging over me, which probably explained the not-too-pretty mood I was in the last couple of days. In other words, I was quite snappish and mean. I'm really sorry to all those I snapped at. You know you should leave me alone when I'm in a bad mood. =p
And I need to regain my long-lost confidence again!
Anyway, after the two econs papers, I was so relieved that I didn't really study for the history paper I sat for today. It was an SS module (and very well chocked full of propaganda) with regards to Singapore's history. So tell me, am I in my milieu or what? And I really have my Sec 3/4 hist teacher to thank for increasing my interest in that arena.
Well well, as is quite obvious, I'm in a jolly mood again. The next paper's not till Monday, so I have quite a bit of time to study for it. And the best part's that it's open-book! Lalala.
Yep, shall end here for now. I'm so looking forward to meeting up with everyone after exams! Whee. =D
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Like I said in my previous post, exams never fail to mar my happy mood. And it's exacerbated by: (1) being cooped up at home day and night to cram tons of information, (2) not being able to meet the darling (I seriously can't remember when was the last time we saw each other -_-) and (3) not being able to do what I want whenever I want to. Argh.
But the post-exams period is something to really look forward to because I'm: (1) going Sentosa with my beloved XW!, (2) celebrating our second year with the darling (Love him to bits!), (3) so going to work my ass off to save up for the Japan trip at the end of the year, GSS etc, and (4) meeting up with friends old and new! Just thinking about all these makes me so happy and excited.
And now the only thing left for me to do is to survive the exams by mugging darn hard!
And hopefully you won't be seeing me here again until 2 May!
Till then, tata~
Exams never fail to put me in a bad mood.
I'm cranky again. And venting it on people who are hapless.
It's funny how I always manage to delude myself when it's so apparent the truth's otherwise.
And you're probably thinking that this is yet another self-mocking tirade again.
It is. But the only difference this time is that I'm going to stop this shit right now.
And this isn't meant to be coherent.
Tata.
Once again, disappointment flowered and spread.
And I'm powerless to stop it.
Is it because I expect too much?
Sunday, April 08, 2007
Met the darling on Friday for a movie and dinner at Waraku! It seemed like ages since we last saw each other - isn't it kind of ironic that we're actually seeing less of each other after he ORD-ed? Anyway, the date was uneventful, but I enjoyed myself nonetheless. After all, like they always say, it's the company that matters! (:
So, here's the only photo I mangaed to take of the food before we tucked in - I had the hotate kaminabe (scallop paper hotpot - if I remembered correctly =p) which I had always mistaken for the mushroom hotpot from the window display -_-|| whereas the darl ordered the katsu set which was equally good:
Looks real good, doesn't it?
Yup, guess that'll be all for now. Till then, tata~
