I really don't know what's wrong with me. I have a paper tomorrow, but I just can't seem to concentrate. I'm wasting time sleeping and doing stuff except for studying. In fact, I don't even feel the slightest sense of urgency - I mean, hello, I HAVE AN EXAM TOMORROW!!!! -slaps myself awake- Furthermore, it's the paper that I'm dreading. Tell me, what should I do? Sighhh.
I really hate this semester. My timetable sucks, I'm doing modules which I don't like, on top of that, 4 out of 5 of them require heavy readings. My brain's so over-saturated I just can't squeeze in any more information, no matter how much I force myself to. Think I'll be getting a C average this sem. But that fact can't even galvanise me to do anything. Feeling so, so jaded and tired. I'm losing faith quickly, despite the support I'm getting from my family and him. It's always easier said than done. People will keep telling you can do it and I know they're just trying to be nice, but they really don't understand the strain I'm under, trying to keep up my grades and living up to their expectations.
I feel like such a failure. Oh gosh, all I ask for is for this sem to be over quick. Just 3 more days to the end of exams and I'll be free for 3 months. The problem is, I'll never be free of feeling like a loser, and falling short of expections. :(
Guess that's all for now. I shall force myself to hit the books again. At the most, I'll just write rubbish and stone tomorrow. Wish me luck. Tata.